essay – Em Lexeme

out of focus

I’ve been avoiding writing lately.
Which means I’ve been avoiding confronting myself.

“Courage,” however, was a stretch value for me. I wanted to be more courageous – so I set it as a vision to accomplish through perseverance.

I had a low-key, pull-the-emergency-break wake up call recently.

It’s #worldmentalhealthday and the past year has been the most informed year of mental health for me. ⁣⁣

you realize the full depth of how many words you have
when you can’t say them to someone⁣⁣⁣⁣

grief wears different masks on everyone ⁣⁣
can strip normal away
from even the simplest rhythms

It can take two hours and thirty-five minutes of driving to mentally unpack two weeks.⁣⁣

I stumbled onto an old Dropbox account full of photos and memories from the past that took me out at the knees.

⁣⁣My first reaction to the realization was shock; a pang. I didn’t remember writing that part of the note. ⁣⁣